[I want to die.]

Yes, that is the very first thing that came into mind when I wanted to start this blog. I wanted to write about what I wanted to do in order to die, or just pure suicidal thoughts in general. It sounded like bullshit after I thought about it though, so I didn’t continue on with the plan.

Instead, I will just talk about something I’ve been pondering on for today, or maybe for the week. That’s why the blog was named: “A Collection of Thoughts from Yesterday’s Tomorrow”. What’s ‘yesterday’s tomorrow’? It’s today. So see, it makes sense. It sounds witty, too.

This is just a random person on the Internet looking for an outlet for the feelings kept deep inside said person’s heart. This person may be a girl or a boy, or whatever. Gender is not important in this situation. What matters are the thoughts that form in our minds.

Thoughts are really powerful things. It makes you want to do something, even if you really didn’t want to consider it in the first place.

For example, “I want to die” is a pretty strong thought. Back then, I wouldn’t even think of considering wanting to die. I didn’t see the point in it. But when you actually start thinking about it, you tend to realize what things are there to consider. Why do you want to die? Is it because you feel useless, worthless, or that no one really appreciates your existence? Is it because you think you did so many wrong things that you just want to end it all? Things like that. Once you start thinking of those, you get into a state wherein it’s hard to escape. You start to see why you would consider the thought, given the circumstances.

Thoughts help shape a person. It somehow defines them - what they think can lead to what they actually do or say. The things that go through a person’s mind are a vast collection of ideas, regrets, memories, insults, praises, compliments, and many more. A collection of words with meaning. It may not mean much for someone else, but for that specific person, it makes sense.

I want to make a collection of my thoughts. An outlet, if you may. It really doesn’t matter for me if everyone will know what I’m thinking; I would rather share my ideas to the world rather than keep them to myself. Besides, if I don’t have enough power to do it, maybe someone can help me. Or maybe someone else can do it better. I don’t know. It’s just a thought.

I hope that when you go through this collection of thoughts I have, you realize something for yourself. I hope that I might be able to help you in a dilemma you’re currently facing, or maybe just entertain you with my words. I hope that through these thoughts I will post, I might be able to change something in your life. Whatever that thing would be is up to you.