Tag: random
- I'm participating in InkTober!
And I don't plan on becoming lazy for this! I told myself that I wouldn't back out. I think it's also a good thing, since at least I'll have a "break" from work, and I'll be doing ...
- disoriented—
that's what you are. waking up with the stars, you think time has gone far— comprehension went out and said, "au revoir," leaving you alone at an ungodly hour / disoriented— that's...
- boys don't cry
but i'm not a boy and i do cry and i did cry over the simple things you wouldn't even believe why / and how i really ruin a great day a great night a nice drive all green lights a ...
- right to left
maybe some things are better left unsaid: the issue that counts as unneeded stress, the discomfort felt by not being blessed, the feelings developed that went nowhere, the anger th...
- Association
There are days when I don't like looking at myself in the mirror. I don't see any worth. I see only a reflection of what is. / During those moments, I am most vulnerable. I feel th...
- appetite
is a space that is growing inside my self; a hunger for a certain kind of attention, a particular familiar sensation, longing for that comfort you let me feel; continuously searchi...
- Thoughts while commuting.
This is just a collection of some recurring thoughts I've had while commuting. If I feel like it, I may update this as more thoughts come. Most of them will be in Filipino, my nati...
- [Finding an Alternative to Sunrise Calendar.] Closing Thoughts.
I realized that I didn't really continue from this post, but just to put an end to this little "series" I started, here's what I got from testing those apps out: / Nothing can repl...
- Lo(o)se
Using some sand, you begin to create something. You want to create something sturdy, something that lasts. You want this to stay by your side, and you won't ever lose sight of it. ...
- alleviate
There are days—like this—when I wish my hugs would be enough to make you feel better, when my kisses would heal the parts that matter. / I sometimes hope my love could defy reality...
- Hiding in plain sight.
Lately, I have had thoughts of wanting to disappear from the face of the earth. To be hidden. To not exist. To fade into nothingness. / It may be just "one of those days", wherein ...
- silence
You normally won't hear a lot in silence. There's not a lot of content to cover, not a lot of words to mix and match; Silence does not have much. / But with you, it seems heavier t...
- The origin of the username
I'm just leaving this here because some people may wonder what the username chiawase means. / Simply put, it's a play on two words: my nickname and the Japanese word for happiness—...
- Hello, 2016.
It's been a while since I last posted in this blog. I haven't felt the urge to write last semester, and I also did not see the need to write things down. / But now, I sorta do. / H...
- Turning My Needs Into Wants -- a reflection.
I want to practice writing. I need to practice writing. / I also know that if I need to do something, I (subconsciously or not) do my best to "like" whatever it is I need, so that ...
- Ayaw
Ayaw ko nang lumapit sa iyo. Ayaw kong makipag-usap sa tao. Ayaw ko nang kumain ng hapunan. Ayaw ko nang pumasok kinabukasan. Ayaw ko nang gumalaw sa kama. Ayaw ko nang makita ang ...
- Could Haves
I could have picked up that dead bird on the street and set it aside. I could have stopped myself from viewing porn so that there's no more need to hide. I could have just stopped ...
- Kausap
Natawa lang ako sa situation nung person. Haha. Enjoy :) / Hindi ka na nagreply. Hindi mo na ako pinansin. Kakausapin ko na lang ang ere Pero wala rin namang sasagot sakin Diba? / ...
- Is this thing still on?
Yes, yes it is. / It's just that the owner hasn't really gone back to this thing for quite some time. / Hey everyone (I wonder who reads this anyway), / I haven't really been posti...
- Diagnosis and Repair
printout
- caught in-between
caught in-between two paths -- once intertwined now extricated; / both looking for the same light, both searching throughout the night. / by day, they say they're never the same in...
- the problem
the problem about writing your feelings: letting them ooze out from the text you're reading is that the hurt keeps coming back after you read them; instead of photographs, you left...
- it doesn't matter how much time you've spent with a person.
what matters is that when you wake up, you realize that you're more in love. / and when you finally decide to get up, you grow and go deeper in love. / and when the moon sets and t...
- dots, dashes and ellipses
what else can I say after a dot. after a hanging line -- after an ellipse... / thoughts that keep eating my mind. words at the end of my tongue -- lost in my mind... / do I still n...
- idle words
the hardest part of writing: when you hit that point when you don't know what to write about at that exact moment when all that comes out of your mind is just gibberish words that ...
- What is it to you?
What else are you holding back? Back in the depth of your thoughts thoughts that sometimes make no sense sense of the heart and the mind mind you, he's already giving his all all f...
- you
you say sadness is the only thing you know but are you willing to go past that? do you want to know more things? things more than sadness? / there are lots of other things beyond t...
- General Things
We're both in the same place, both in the same time but that might not be enough; you have to be more specific. / Moving in the same Earth, breathing the same air, but that's not e...
- 10012014
Time. / We usually think that all we need is a wee bit more time. More time to think about the things that we've done, more time to do all the promises we made, more time to be wit...
- 100913
You're so responsible. / You know how to handle things. I don't know if I can. Funny, how you're the one who's a first timer and yet, it feels like you know what to do. / I guess t...
- Mamang Bulag
naalala ko isang araw, naglalakad ako napansin ko sa tabi ko, isang mamang bulag naglalakad patungo sa overpass nagmamadali ako; hindi na ako tumigil nilagpasan ko siya, pero napai...
- 061213
maybe if I didn't draw only faces, I would be proud of what I've drawn. / maybe if I didn't see the things that scarred me, I would be proud of what I've seen. / maybe if I didn't ...
- This might be open-ended.
can you easily tell the difference between a lie and a sigh? / what's different about these two? what do you think is true or what are you more used to? / a lie may not always have...
- Pedro (?)
Habang nagbibisikleta sa gilid ng kalsada nakita lang kita bigla kong naalala ang isa kong kaklase kaibigan kong lalaki kasamahan ko dati nasa honors palagi Siya ba kaya yun? Hindi...
- push
sometimes, all we need is a little push to get things going, get things to flow but that little push might be too much for the person who feels so small a little push might mean di...
- Want
I want to / sing dance draw write cry smile hide beguile lie talk sleep walk sit stand leap land go stop love gasp hush rant guess land make do create chew wreck test / and do the ...
- Bi(cycle)
(There's nothing wrong with being right. What worries me is what's left.) / What would be left with me (other than the lingering memory of us together)? What else would be there (b...
- The Wait
I remember how long I waited for this moment: to be part of your universe; to be amongst the stars that you see every night; to be the clouds that pass by your house every morning;...
- Trust.
Something hard to find. Something hard to grasp. Something hard to do. / You can't trust everyone, apparently. And what's more stupid is that I let myself get hurt with mistrust de...
- In Your Arms
Before going to sleep, remembering the feeling of being in your arms allowing myself to be comfortable --- now that's wonderful. / Let me hold your hand and just stay like this, th...
- A Note to Myself:
Don't you just love the feeling of finishing something you've worked so hard on? Don't you just love the feeling of finally achieving what you've wanted all this time, and knowing ...
- _
uncertainty is always around the corner. wherever you go, with whomever you meet, whatever time of the day -- it's always there. / uncertainty. / going on and about with your life,...
- Baby Steps
It's been a long time. (Time is relative.) / Take it nice and slow. No rush to it. (You hold the key to make this matter.) / Whatever happens, just take it as it is. (Don't over th...
- My Wonderboy
Who knew that one day, you'd get to meet the guy of your dreams. Who knew that one day, someone will see you for who you are, not for who they want you to be. / Who knew that one d...
- (on the dance floor)
You never did remember me. / I danced with you that moment; orange dress, dancing shoes, beads of sweat forming along with the beat that you could feel creeping up your bones as yo...
- Just letting you know.
I don't know, man. / Can you explain how you are annoyed at someone? Sometimes you can. / Sometimes you can't...? / Are you sure? / Maybe it's for some deep-rooted reason that you ...
- It's been 5 months.
I don't know if it was obvious for you, but I like(d) you. I guess it wasn't. Or maybe it was. I don't really know. / I wonder if you would understand why. Then again, I'm really n...
- What would you say?
I wonder what you would say if you found out that I like you. / I've been pondering on that thought for quite a while now. I really don't know how to tell you, though; it's somethi...
- I want to write a letter.
write a letter and give it to someone whoever it may be just write a letter and put it in an envelope for them to see writing a letter for a special someone maybe I don't really kn...
- Contact Number
The number you have dialed is incorrect please try again; or maybe not you might have gotten it wrong anyway. / The number you have dialed is busy at the moment and every other mom...
- Words
empty boxes shipped to your mouth coming out slowly one by one you try to open them up slowly and surely looking inside careful not to miss any of the meanings hidden (if there are...
- After All's Been Said and Done
You know what's not easy? Being in love - it's never easy you think you're crazy but you're not really -- but actually you might be just really crazy all your words come out weirdl...
- I am:
I am a wandering cloud -- I mix in with the other clouds in the sky, doing my job of cooling the earth down when needed most. I float amongst the heavens, in the skies where no one...
- The Cycle of Misery
I have this unending feeling of queasiness I cannot shake it off so easily; / Every time I remember past happenings Everything starts to shake / It's like I do not have my footing ...
- Going Home
tears start to fall on top of your cover you can feel it all making your body ache all over / you have your feet in buckets of water they feel so beat from plunging in the gutter /...
- Dear Kuya: Ulit
Dear kuya, / Nagsusulat ulit ako sa'yo. Di ko ba alam, napagtripan ko lang ulit. Tagal na kasi talaga natin hindi nag-usap, tapos ngayon ang dami ko na rin ginagawa. Marami ring gi...
- what do i want?
I want love I want... to love I want to have someone to love I miss the feeling of waking up and looking forward to seeing that one someone just him, no one else would make my day ...
- 06072013;
It may not be much, but whenever I share anything, just anything with you -- food or drinks, maybe some wine jokes or laughs, maybe some time -- I enjoy more of my life. / It might...
- let me die
can i die i want to die can i die please let me die i don't deserve to live i want to die can i die can i please just die i can have a lot of ways to die i can suddenly let myself ...
- i'm not
i'm not who you think i am i'm not shy in front of others i'm not quiet like i usually say so i'm not nice like i "normally" am i'm not someone you can rely on i'm not someone you ...
- Being transparent
There will always be that one day when you feel that you are just a ghost in the wind, where your movements mean nothing to the lives of others. Being invisible, in another phrase....
- stop
I should stop talking to him. I should stop clinging on to people I find comfort with. I should stop trying to make people care for me. I should stop trying to actually win people ...
- Morning Dew;;
Here you are, again. In the middle of everything. In the middle of what you call your 'everything'. / Who am I to you anyway? I'm no one. I'm just someone who managed to like you. ...
- there are just some things better left untouched
for nothing else will happen when you try to change them; / there are just some things better left untouched because they always go back the same place anyway there are just some t...
- Funny how you're thinking of a title but instead you typed in this
It's funny how just one simple thing can bring back thousands of memories locked away from the past, and millions of feelings felt that you wished never came back. Funny how one pe...
- A different kind of sad
There's the kind of sad that goes back to haunt you. The kind of sad that hurts you every time. You don't know where it came from; you don't know the reason why it's there in the f...
- What If
What if I could just disappear into the darkness? Then no one would ever worry anymore. No one would think of me as a problem to them. I'd be helping them by erasing my existence i...
- Sitting in front of the store;
When you start to question the reality of the world, you might not be doing anything. You could just be admiring the view of the city from a hill top, or just watching the flurry o...
- 030413;;
Hope that when times flow over and out you will be gone before you know it no one will remember your name, so be it get lost, you dimwit you're not needed in this world / I don't n...
- [I want to die.]
Yes, that is the very first thing that came into mind when I wanted to start this blog. I wanted to write about what I wanted to do in order to die, or just pure suicidal thoughts ...