Reminding myself why I write

Maybe once I’ve finished writing the draft blog post I have, I’ll link it here too. But for now, I’ll be referring to a particular blog post that is still in my drafts and I haven’t published yet. You might be able to see it in my repo, but it’s not yet “built” on my website.

While writing a draft blog post, I realize the length of it has gotten longer than I thought it was going to be. I just really have a lot of things to say, most times, and for that particular instance, I think it is properly warranted that I would write a lot of words.

I felt conscious about it though, because part of me would think, “but what about the readability factor of this?”

But as I had that thought, I also had to remind myself that the person I write for is myself. Or at least, that should be how I approach things here.

Ultimately, I’m putting these all together in the hopes that in the future, when I look back at the things I’ve done and reflect on the past, I have written accounts of what happened.

I used to be able to do that through the poetry and random musings I used to post on my WordPress blog (linking it here just to show that at some point it did exist, even if now I did mark it as private haha). I do plan to move the posts I have there into here, I just haven’t gotten to it and I plan to also style it in a way that it’s obviously from my past musings and was written during a different time in my life 😆 same with the stuff in my Archive for Micro.blog posts. But anyways…

It does feel nice to know that someone else reads the musings I put out here on the internet, though. More of a “oh hey this person took the time out of their day to hear/read what I had to say.” Regardless if they responded or not, it does feel nice to know that someone else took the time to look at these things. But I guess that is also human nature, in a way? Or maybe just part of my want for attention? lol

I’ve since learned to just accept that I do have these desires and tendencies and it’s alright either way. I don’t want to feel pressured doing something like this when the only person who would potentially be pressuring me would be myself.

So there. This is me writing to myself a reminder that whatever I publish or put here on my website, I’m putting it for me. It’s my mark on the Internet, whatever that may contribute.

If ever you read up until this point, thanks for taking the time to hear (or read? heh) my thoughts. If you have thoughts you’d like to share, you can just reach out online and mention this post so I remember.